Twisted Feelings And Thoughts

We're counting the days, and hoping the best
We're feeling the worst, Life gives us the rest
I'm missing you so, or hugging you tight
Lying by your side, every single night
Your sparkling eyes, your wonderful smile
The last time I've seen them? Well, it's been a while..
But I remember exactly the sound of your voice
Months ago when you said that I was the right choice
I still can't believe and comprehend it
Not completely, a little, even not a bit
And I hope that you will see one day
That I'm not good for you, and nothing's okay.
And now, after months, we don't have a new goal
We're expecting the least, running out of control
The monsters which live inside us forever
Will make everything worse, wherever, whenever
they can.
But I'm not giving in, and we both do know why
Not a deadly sin, as it's always been
When somewhat, any thoughts, random words made us grin
Something that a few people would just call "true love"
And if we take a look at the things written above
We may come to the clear conclusion
That it can't be just an illusion
But that just makes it harder.
Missing someone is like a black hole
That's taking over your thoughts
That's destroying your soul
It's a terrible feeling, and I'm sure it could kill
It may make us take a bottle of pills
Being part of the beasts, taking it as a thrill
A thrill of joy, they love seeing us suffer...
And if we don't do it they call us a bluffer
They'll start calling us names, in the last resort
We'd start cutting again, oh life is so short
Why don't we just die? Wouldn't that be much fun?
Just drinking some bleach, or pulling the gun,
We could hang ourselves too, on the next best tree
No matter what we'll do, we'll never be free
All joking aside, it seems it is the last chance
"And alone to the tune of your death,
we dance."